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thinnify:

Nutritional Labels 101

Many lean cuisine...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltgw50byDF1qf4zb3o1_r1_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://th3skinny.tumblr.com/post/12335516176/thinnify-nutritional-labels-101-many-lean"&gt;th3skinny&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://thinnify.tumblr.com/post/12335301230/nutritional-labels-101"&gt;thinnify&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Nutritional Labels 101&lt;/p&gt;
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Many lean cuisine boxes now contain 2 servings. So they advertise 280 or so cals on the front of the box, but if you eat the whole box you’re actually getting 560. Tricky tricky egg rolls.&lt;/blockquote&gt;

&lt;p&gt;Read those labels!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/18476157976</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/18476157976</guid><pubDate>Tue, 28 Feb 2012 22:18:27 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>flatabsandthighgaps:

“Getting skinny” will not bring you your...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltj4qeFA1w1qkn1vlo1_500.png"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://flatabsandthighgaps.tumblr.com/post/18366370344/getting-skinny-will-not-bring-you-your-prince" class="tumblr_blog"&gt;flatabsandthighgaps&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;“Getting skinny” will not bring you your prince charming. Learning to love yourself? &lt;/em&gt;&lt;em&gt;Well now, that’s a different story.&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/18395244888</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/18395244888</guid><pubDate>Mon, 27 Feb 2012 16:26:02 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>youuonlyliveitonce:

this photo look familiar? its of my sister...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lxgu2eQhgb1qii22qo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://youuonlyliveitonce.tumblr.com/post/15496034543/this-photo-look-familiar-its-of-my-sister-and-i"&gt;youuonlyliveitonce&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;this photo look familiar? its of my sister and I. I posted it not long ago, and its since gotten 1000+ notes on Tumblr and counting. The caption of the photo is talking about our bond, and how strong my sister is for continuing to fight her battle of cancer everyday of the past 5 years. Since I posted the photo, my sister lost her battle. She passed away on the 20/12/11 at 8:49pm in my arms. My sister was my bestfriend, and I want to continue to honor her. Reblog to keep my sisters spirit alive for as long as possible, she deserves it.&lt;em&gt; &lt;br/&gt;Everyone to reblog this will be watched over by her tonight &lt;3&lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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lulifornow:

lotuss-eater:

bettyliebling:

jor...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lqknqlKqYe1qm1bkno1_400.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://evalinaghoulina.tumblr.com/post/15013469637/lulifornow-lotuss-eater-bettyliebling"&gt;evalinaghoulina&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://lulifornow.tumblr.com/post/15013398394"&gt;lulifornow&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://lotuss-eater.tumblr.com/post/15013307879"&gt;lotuss-eater&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://bettyliebling.tumblr.com/post/10589213033"&gt;bettyliebling&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://jordynls.tumblr.com/post/10588888385"&gt;jordynls&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://vitalehart.tumblr.com/post/10588690257"&gt;vitalehart&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://electric-sanity.tumblr.com/post/9445962754"&gt;electric-sanity&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;meet Oogy, Oogy was about ten weeks old and weighed 20 pounds he was tied to a stake and used as bait for a Pit Bull. The left side of his face including most of his ear was torn off. He was bitten so hard a piece of his lower jaw was crushed. Afterward, he was thrown into a cage and left to bleed to death.&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;&lt;span&gt;if you have time to reblog pointless hipster photos, you’ll have time to reblog this, respect for Oogy .&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/15032663618</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/15032663618</guid><pubDate>Fri, 30 Dec 2011 12:26:20 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>loraxesarereal:

tatahuzumaki:


BEST. POST. ON TUMBLR.

THIS...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltswo072sl1r3cx1bo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ltswo072sl1r3cx1bo2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://loraxesarereal.tumblr.com/post/13992363179/tatahuzumaki-best-%20%20%20%20ing-post-on-tumblr"&gt;loraxesarereal&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://tatahuzumaki.tumblr.com/post/12926160391/best-%20%20%20%20ing-post-on-tumblr-this-should-have"&gt;tatahuzumaki&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;BEST. POST. ON TUMBLR.&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;THIS SHOULD HAVE MORE NOTES.&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;I’ve reblogged this before but I just love it so much.&lt;/p&gt;
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Love this</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/14402301047</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/14402301047</guid><pubDate>Sun, 18 Dec 2011 09:12:04 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Photo</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt1gmrWHDk1r49rzvo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt1gmrWHDk1r49rzvo2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt1gmrWHDk1r49rzvo3_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt1gmrWHDk1r49rzvo4_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lt1gmrWHDk1r49rzvo5_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/11622781129</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/11622781129</guid><pubDate>Tue, 18 Oct 2011 16:33:40 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Food for thought...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;One of my friends posted this on FB&amp;#8230;. I couldn&amp;#8217;t agree more!&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;h6 class="uiStreamMessage"&gt;&lt;span class="messageBody" data-ft='{"type":3}'&gt;SHARED  FROM A FRIEND IT WAS TO MEANINGFUL NOT TO PASS ALONG. When I was a kid,  my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I  remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a  long, hard day at work. On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a  plate of eggs, sausage, and extremely burned biscuits in front of my  dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was  reach for his Biscuit, smile at my mom and ask me how my day was at  school. I don&amp;#8217;t remember what I told him that night, but I do remember  hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I&amp;#8217;ll  never forget what he said: &amp;#8220;Honey, I love burned biscuits.&amp;#8221; Later that  night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really  liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, &amp;#8220;Your  momma put in a long hard day at work today and she&amp;#8217;s real tired. And  besides&amp;#8230; a burnt biscuit never hurt anyone!&amp;#8221; You know, life is full of  imperfect things&amp;#8230; and imperfect people. I&amp;#8217;m not the best at hardly  anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone  else. What I&amp;#8217;ve learned over the years is that learning to accept each  others faults and choosing to celebrate each others differences, is one  of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting  relationship. So&amp;#8230;please pass me a biscuit. And yes, the burned one  will do just fine! And please pass this along to someone who has  enriched your life&amp;#8230; I just did! Life is too short to wake up with  regrets&amp;#8230; Love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones  who don&amp;#8217;t. ENJOY LIFE NOW - IT HAS AN EXPIRATION&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/h6&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/10520691400</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/10520691400</guid><pubDate>Thu, 22 Sep 2011 11:57:35 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Love this!</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lrdmzju6ED1qkecwoo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Love this!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/10126640996</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/10126640996</guid><pubDate>Mon, 12 Sep 2011 11:22:22 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>How sweet is this? :)</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lp87p7ltJb1qbnomuo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lp87p7ltJb1qbnomuo2_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;How sweet is this? :)&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8476104370</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8476104370</guid><pubDate>Thu, 04 Aug 2011 13:19:51 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>I absolutely adore I Love Lucy!!  This is one of my favorites...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o1_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o2_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o3_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o4_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o5_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o6_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o7_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lopfs6K26Y1qbgyx2o8_250.gif"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt; &lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;I absolutely adore I Love Lucy!!  This is one of my favorites :)  Lucille Ball rocked!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8222565833</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8222565833</guid><pubDate>Fri, 29 Jul 2011 14:20:36 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Love her!  &lt;3 Siempre Selena! &lt;3</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lkulb4NMyp1qjspfyo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Love her!  &lt;3 Siempre Selena! &lt;3&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8053996868</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8053996868</guid><pubDate>Mon, 25 Jul 2011 16:13:10 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>funny-pictures-uk:

Ain’t this the truth. 
</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lotzyb4BH81qc2bszo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://funnypictures.co.uk/post/8020955385/then-and-now"&gt;funny-pictures-uk&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Ain’t this the truth. &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8051517869</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8051517869</guid><pubDate>Mon, 25 Jul 2011 15:07:17 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>LMAO!</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_loutmqBTuz1qcpxpko1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;LMAO!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8051482605</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/8051482605</guid><pubDate>Mon, 25 Jul 2011 15:06:21 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>Hey guys!  Here is a chance to subscribe to Cosmo for only $5...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lfp4jvq1x91qzvt3co1_250.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;Hey guys!  Here is a chance to subscribe to Cosmo for only $5 bucks &lt;a href="http://u.bzz.com/j11yg"&gt;&lt;a href="http://u.bzz.com/j11yg"&gt;http://u.bzz.com/j11yg&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/a&gt;  As a fan of Cosmo for many years I am super excited about this offer, the magazine is full of fun and interesting info on fashion, guys and celebs.  Click on the link and you can get 1 year of Cosmo for the price of 1 magazine!  :)&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2961867770</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2961867770</guid><pubDate>Thu, 27 Jan 2011 14:23:54 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>If  you are looking for an awesome workout please check out...</title><description>&lt;iframe width="400" height="299" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/BzwYGq6VQgU?wmode=transparent&amp;autohide=1&amp;egm=0&amp;hd=1&amp;iv_load_policy=3&amp;modestbranding=1&amp;rel=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen&gt;&lt;/iframe&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;If  you are looking for an awesome workout please check out Batuka, it is AMAZING!  This cardio dance workout originated in Spain and is similar to the Zumba workout except that (and I have tried both) Batuka does much more sculpting exercises with the dance.  The video above is just one of my favorite songs to dance to but there are plenty of other harder hitting routines in the various videos (there are 7 titles overall) that I have tried.  Even though it is all in spanish, please don’t let the language barrier hinder you from trying it out! &lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2157649789</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2157649789</guid><pubDate>Thu, 09 Dec 2010 16:29:19 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>mashimaro:

red velvet soft serve, from momofuku milk bar (via...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ld361mQNxA1qz5glxo1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://mashimaro.tumblr.com/post/2138228947/red-velvet-soft-serve-from-momofuku-milk-bar-via"&gt;mashimaro&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/amlamster/5175387917/"&gt;red velvet soft serve, from momofuku milk bar&lt;/a&gt; (via &lt;a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/amlamster/"&gt;amlamster&lt;/a&gt;)&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;OMG I want some so bad right now!!&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2155039305</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/2155039305</guid><pubDate>Thu, 09 Dec 2010 10:47:34 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>check out these beauties :)

 franklieu:

Rainbow roses are made...</title><description>&lt;img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kxy78pKsah1qz9eq0o1_500.jpg"/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;&lt;br/&gt;check out these beauties :)

 &lt;p&gt;&lt;a href="http://tumblr.franklieu.com/post/393138382/rainbow-roses-are-made-by-inserting-dye-into-the" class="tumblr_blog"&gt;franklieu&lt;/a&gt;:&lt;/p&gt;

&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a&gt;Rainbow roses&lt;/a&gt; are made by inserting dye into the stem of the roses while they are growing, which results in the color being absorbed by the petals of the flower.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/396241386</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/396241386</guid><pubDate>Thu, 18 Feb 2010 02:34:56 -0500</pubDate></item><item><title>Been awhile...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;So I originally made this blog to be about random nothings and it started turning into a mommy blog.  What can I say?  I AM a mommy after all lol.  Either way its been almost 2 months since I&amp;#8217;ve actually posted something mostly because I am too damn lazy to do much of anything these days and because I was basically invaild due to the accursed morning sickness!  So far things with this pregnancy are going pretty well, for one thing the baby is growing and thriving (at least for the moment) and for another I have been feeling him (her) move since I hit 16 weeks :)  I started feeling flutters around 14 weeks and it stopped, freaked me out and then decided to start again on a regular basis!  This kid is already testing me lol.  Anyway, I have been feeling the baby since 16 weeks and I am now currently 19 weeks and 3 days along which is great.  I got my blood results back from my 2nd set and thankfully it came back negative which was really a relief as I had the biggest fear that I was just replaying my time with Angel all over again!  I have had 2 ultrasounds since I last posted, here is the one from my 1st trimester screen (I believe I was about 12 weeks and change:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;Its fuzzy cause its a picture of a picture and taken with my craptastic cellphone.  At my last visit (4 month check up) I was able to see my &amp;#8220;regular&amp;#8221; Dr. and able to get her to take a quick look at the office to make sure things were going well - she had told me during my 1st visit that she didn&amp;#8217;t believe my misfortune with Angel would surpass again and that she didn&amp;#8217;t recommend any additional testing but she would try and schedule an additional ultrasound during my 4th month just to make sure things were on the up and up.  Well since I hadn&amp;#8217;t seen her at my 3rd month check up I wasn&amp;#8217;t able to schedule it but she was kind enough to do it for me at the office.  I was thrilled to see the baby looked fanstatic (from a 2D perspective of course), having had so many ultrasounds I could see the baby was very well formed, I saw the spine, ribs and beautiful heartbeat.  S/he was measuring a week ahead as well which is great! It made my heart sing to see that everythig looked good and my doctor decided to get a peek at the GOODS&amp;#8230;.so here is it:&lt;/p&gt;
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&lt;p&gt;According to my doctor, she is 90% sure this baby is a BOY!!  She did tell me not to hold her too that because she isn&amp;#8217;t certified to do anatomical scans but having seen plenty of gender ultrasounds in my pregnacy group I am pretty certain that I am indeed having a son :)  I have my actual ultrasound at the hospital next Friday so I&amp;#8217;ll have confirmation then but in the mean time I am getting used to the idea of having a boy and all that will entail.  My husband is of course over the moon because what man doesn&amp;#8217;t want a son?!?  I was so sure this baby was a girl so it was pretty surprising when the doctor told me otherwise but I am just thankful that everything is ok!  I know people tend to say that a lot but REALLY after suffering the loss of Angel I just want this baby to be born, healthy and without complications - is that too much to ask for?  Anyway, other than the constant worry about the baby there is nothing else really going on.  Mother&amp;#8217;s Day came and went and it was lovely, my 3 year wedding anniversary is this coming Tuesday and then the Sunday after next is my 25th birthday!  Since there isn&amp;#8217;t a lot of money there won&amp;#8217;t be much of a big TA-DA but I am happy nonetheless.  I guess thats the update for the moment.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/111056901</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/111056901</guid><pubDate>Thu, 21 May 2009 13:32:57 -0400</pubDate></item><item><title>And the beat goes on...</title><description>&lt;p&gt;Today I hit the 12 week mark which is fantastic!  At the end of this week I will be in my 2nd trimester, however instead of feeling estatic or happy I am more filled with dread then I have been the entire time I&amp;#8217;ve been pregnant.  I can not help but think that I am just reliving my worst nightmare over again, ever day I get closer to being as far along as I was with Angel and I am seriously freaking out!  My husband thinks I am nuts and most people that I have told (which are very few) are all very positive but I just can&amp;#8217;t get there.  I have tried thinking about the future and while I can invision it I just don&amp;#8217;t believe I will get to live it.  I am going for my 1st trimester screen on Friday and while the last time I had a great screen I feel like maybe this time I won&amp;#8217;t - maybe I will have to deal with the sadness and pain earlier than last time.  Maybe I need to take some anti-anxiety meds or something??  I still have all the symptoms and I swear I can feel the fluttering which is a BIG difference from last time so I hope that maybe its a sign.&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt;On a side note my sister and I had this huge blow out over a week ago&amp;#8230;all because I am pregnant??!?!  She felt the need to attack me and say that I am an idiot and shouldn&amp;#8217;t be bringing a baby into my poor financial situation&amp;#8230;yadda yadda and then she decided she would top it off with &amp;#8220;oh please, you&amp;#8217;re only trying to replace the baby you lost!&amp;#8221;.  WOW.  I swear to every holy entity that I would have throttled her if she&amp;#8217;d been anywhere near me.  I told her to go fuck herself and shove her opinions up her ass.  I was really tore up about it at first but I gained some perspective and now its all pretty humourous (except the baby comment&amp;#8230;that still boils my blood).  A week or so later she sends me a text to ask for forgiveness and to say that she would try to think before she speaks.  Things have been awkward since, I can&amp;#8217;t really forgive her and I told her that.  I did forgive the idiot comments simply because they didn&amp;#8217;t mean jack to me but the replacement comment - I mean how could she even go there?!?  No one, not even my husband or closest friends know how much I hurt for Angel.  How I miss him every single day and how I wonder what he would have looked like, would he have come early, on time or late?  How he would have been about a month old right now.  No one will ever understand because they didn&amp;#8217;t have to go through it and the only support I&amp;#8217;ve really gotten has been from the internet and women who have lived through what I have and worse.  She tried to wipe away his existence with her stupid comment and I will never forgive her for that because that baby was my baby, he had an identity from the minute I saw the 2nd pink line and I loved him every second I had him with me.  No one will ever be able to replace him or make my pain go away.&lt;/p&gt;</description><link>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/91569466</link><guid>http://gab6784.tumblr.com/post/91569466</guid><pubDate>Tue, 31 Mar 2009 10:49:11 -0400</pubDate></item></channel></rss>

